Confirmation Day!

Does any one remember being a kid the day before a big event? Whether that day was Christmas, your birthday, heck even the first day of school – you were so excited!

That my friends is how I feel today. I am on the edge, I am bouncing off the walls!

Tomorrow is the day we find out if we are “truly” pregnant! Let’s review the symptoms, shall we?

  • Nauseous
  • Extreme Exhaustion
  • Some Pain in Lower Abdomen
  • Bloating
  • Cravings/Aversions to Foods

This list of symptoms has come with all the ups and downs.

On the first day of transfer, I had some major back pain with nausea. I felt the transfer took and was excited beyond belief! However, that quickly subsided when some light spotting occurred on day five, and day six. This spotting would continue for several days even warranting a progesterone increase. The good news was the progesterone was chugging right along. Though for safety’s sake, the doctor determined it would be best to up the PIO (Progesterone In Oil) to 1.5 and add an additional pill of progesterone three times daily. (While I’m writing this I’m realizing I left all three of those pills at home today. Insert face palm here.)

There are several reasons why the bleeding could have occurred. One of the biggest reasons would be that both embabies stuck! This would mean we are carrying twins. Typically 1 in 4 women bleed with twin pregnancies in the first 3 months. We’re holding on to this shred of hope!

If you’ve read up on IVF much, most women say the two week wait is the worst part of in vitro. Why? Most of them are doing IVF because of multiple miscarriages or loss of pregnancies. We are not one of those couples. In fact, before having my tubes cut, tied, and burned I had no issues getting pregnant. So transfer seemed like it would be a breeze to us.

Now, don’t think I made you read this far and wouldn’t let you in on our little secret. Also, don’t think that we’re patient enough to wait two weeks to have a blood test to confirm the pregnancy! HA! NOPE!

We did not wait! At 5 days post transfer, we tested and were negative.

At 7 days post transfer, we had a very faint line but a line none the less!

At 9 days post transfer we had a bright line show up!

TA – DA!

We’re still waiting on the blood draw – this will be tomorrow. Until then, celebrate with us!

XO – Sabrina

Putting Aside Your Ego.

Can we talk about ego’s for a sec? Not your puffed out chest saying “I am a badass,” but the egos we utilize to go against what we know isn’t best for us.

Take me for example… When I first started with my weightless journey, I was completely on my own. I knew I could do it by myself, I wasn’t sharing my journey or even talking to anyone about it. I just did it. So when I failed, I failed miserably and beat myself up for it over, over and over again.

It wasn’t until I found a tribe. You’re right, a tribe sounds “clique-y”. The saying rings true, “Your vibe attracts your tribe.” Without the group of like-minded woman I was invited into, I wouldn’t be where I am today. In fact, I probably wouldn’t be writing this post.

Today, I am on bed rest, not because anything is necessarily wrong. But, because I let my ego get ahead of my bodies needs. I took two days away from exercise after transfer day, and then hopped right back into my routine. I shouldn’t have, but there I was crushing it! I felt great after every single workout, some of my friends and even my coach said “you’re glowing!”. But, what they didn’t know.. Is that I was threatening to waste close to fourteen thousand dollars because my ego said “keep going”. So, now, I put my ego aside. I put it away and I reached out for help.

When I reached out at home, I found my kids sticking to my nutrition plan bringing me healthy snacks in my colorful containers, water, breakfast, lunch and checking in on me so much (sometimes too much, lets be honest). I’m really proud of them for stepping up to help out their moms and keep their baby brother(s) away from mama’s ego.

When I reached out to my tribe, I found support regardless of not being able to work out with them. I found them cheering on my non-scale victories (NSV’s) and checking in with me personally to see if I needed anything. I have found a group who enjoys me for me, and lets me come out of my shell just a bit more than usual.

Long story, not short – Put aside your ego to do what’s best for you. Even when it’s not what you “want” to do, you have to learn to listen to your bodies needs!

XO – Sabrina

IVF Background.

To those of you who have not been meticulously following my Instagram posts, we’d like to share a little background on why we’ve chosen this path.

Before Zoram and I ‘re’met, I had already had three beautiful girls. Each of those girls during my pregnancy caused a little more problems. Finally, on my last child, my OBGYN advised it wouldn’t be safe to have another child. She suggested tying my tubes. At the time, I was all for it because who doesn’t want to never take birth control again. HELLO ladies, come on! I tied my tubes and I didn’t think I would ever look back. And I didn’t, until he came along.

When he came along it was like everything changed. My girls loved him, we had great conversation and our relationship was thriving. There has been only one point in our relationship in which we almost split. His dream was military and children. My dream was no children, and I wasn’t ready to be in a long distance relationship. That difference in wants and desires took us two days to work through. But, we did it. His love for the military continued but his desire to go changed once he bonded with the girls. My desire to have children however, remained unchanged.

It wasn’t until we truly were all in to the relationship that the idea of fulfilling his needs became a desire. Zoram has no children of his own and it wouldn’t be fair of me to ask him to never have children, so we both made a sacrifice. We looked into IVF for months before deciding, and when we decided we moved quickly.

After our wedding in December, we realized that if we waited too much longer our desired age ranges would be a little skewed. We didn’t wait, and here we are three months into our journey, waiting until Tuesday to come so we can actually know if we’re pregnant or not.

There’s so much more about IVF that we would love to share, and we’ll dive into that soon.

XO – Sabrina